Things are good. Only a week to go in the term. I can't believe its gone so quickly. It was slow at first but then it flew by. I think thats how things go a lot of the time though. The last day of classes is on the 29th. Then on the 30th there is a retreat happening that begins that day. I'm not doing the retreat but I'm going to serve it. So that means I'll be helping make food and take care of the people who are doing the retreat. It's a nice thing to do since I'm sure some day I'll be doing a retreat and there will be people taking care of me. That will last about ten days. Then I'll be heading to New York for a few weeks. So I get to see all my wonderful NYC friends :-) Then I'd like to make it home to Buffalo for Thanksgiving.

But then... after that... I still have NO idea what I'll be doing. It's kind of scary but oh well. I'll figure it out. I have options - I just don't know yet what the best one will be. The options are these:

1. Stay in Buffalo with my family and get a job. I'd like to work in a coffee shop. I like coffee and I'm happy in coffee shops so why not work in one right?

2. Go to Florida and stay with Jay for a while. Again, I'd try to work in a coffee shop.

3. Come back to Tucson and get a job. In a coffee shop.

Now, it may be weird that I want to work in a coffee shop. Are there really people who go around saying "I want to work in a coffee shop when I grow up." I don't think they do. I mean, I've never heard of anyone saying that. But its one of those weird things that for some reason I've always wanted to do it. So I shall. Its nice that I can really do anything or go anywhere right now. That probably wont always be a possibility for me. But right now it is so I think I should take advatage of it -- right?

No matter what I do I'm still going to come back to Diamond Mountain in February. The living in a tent thing may not work during the winter but I can always get a cheap place in town with some other people. But I've been learning a lot here. About myself and how my mind works. Its a crazy, frightening place, my mind. I think I already knew that but its even more apparent when I have time to listen to it. This is a crazy crazy adventure I seem to be on.

And now - Radiohead lyrics... Because it just came on my ipod and because I feel like it...

"The Bends"
Where do we go from here?
The words are coming out all weird
Where are you now,
when I need you

Alone on an aeroplane
Fall asleep on against the window pane
My blood will thicken
I need to wash myself again to hide all the dirt and pain
'Cause I'd be scared that there's nothing underneath

But who are my real friends?
Have they all got the bends?
Am I really sinking this low?
My baby's got the bends, oh no
We don't have any real friends, no, no, no

Just lying in the bar with my drip feed on
Talking to my girlfriend,
waiting for something to happen
I wish it was the sixties,
I wish I could be happy
I wish, I wish, I wish that something would happen

Where do we go from here?
The planet is a gunboat in a sea of fear
And where are you?
They brought in the CIA,
the tanks and the whole marines
To blow me away, to blow me sky high

My baby's got the bends
We don't have any real friends
Just lying in the bar with my drip feed on
Talking to my girlfriend, waiting for something to happen

I wish it was the sixties,
I wish I could be happy
I wish, I wish, I wish that something would happen

I wanna live, breathe
I wanna be part of the human race
I wanna live, breathe
I wanna be part of the human race, race, race, race

Where do we go from here?
The words are coming out all weird
Where are you now when I need you?

That is all.