all this beauty.

'Be prosperous by offering yajna to the gods,' he said 'for this will bestow upon you everything desirable.'

Forgotten blogs and new jobS

I forgot about this thing. I guess when you have high amounts of stress due to being super poor you don't really think to write whitty things on the internet. Thank you to Jay Malsky for reminding me... Also, my stress level has (temporarily, I'm sure) subsided due to the fact that I HAVE A JOB!!!

WOOHOO!

I am not an employee of a cute little bar in Tucson. I will serve people drinks. I will wear a green shirt with a logo, khakis, a belt, and white sneakers. At the risk of sounding like I'm complaining (because really, I have a job, will pay my bills, and dont want to complain about it...) if someone said to me "Kim, if you had to choose the outift you would least likely want to wear, what would it be?" I would probably say "Hmm, well Person, probably a polo shirt with a logo, khakis, a belt, and white sneakers." But thats ok. I will wear them, I will smile, and I will chat with the patrons of Tucson.

So, not only am I an employee of a cute little bar in tucson... After 2 and a half months of not being able to find a job I had another interview today for which I believe I will be offered the job. Jobless for months, then 2 jobs. The second one is for a cute little cafe where the owner reminds me a Jane Lynch. Due to the overwhelming credit card debt I've recently put myself in I think it would be smart to work both jobs until term starts, pay off the debt I've accumulated since moving to Tucson, and then keep whichever one will work better with my DM schedule once term starts.

I should hear from Jane Lynch by Sunday, and if I dont, she told me to call her. And I shall...

New Year.

Since it is the first day of a new year, the first day of a new decade - I can't help but be reminded of the Fiona Apple song: Better Version of Me (lyrics below)

The nickel dropped
When I was on
My way beyond
The Rubicon
What did I do

And of the games that I can handle
None are ones worth the candle
What can I do

I'm a frightened, fickle person
Fighting, cryin', kickin', cursin'
What should I do

Oooh, after all the folderol,
And hauling over coals stops
What will I do

Can't take a good day without a bad one
Don't feel just to smile until I've had one
Where did I learn

I make a fuss about a little thing
The rhyme is losing to the riddling
Where's the turn

I don't want a home, I'd ruin that
Home is where my habits have a habitat
Why give it a turn

Oh, after all the folderol
And hauling over coals stops
What did I learn

I am likely to miss the main event
If I stop to cry or complain again
So I will keep a deliberate pace
Let the damned breeze dry my face

Oh, mister, wait until you see
What I'm gonna be
I've got a plan, a demand and it just began
And if you're right, you'll agree

Here's coming a better version of me
Here it comes a better version of me
Here it comes a better version of me

Now, I dont necessarily agree with having to make a new years resolution. Jay and I had a talk about this yesterday. I mean, why make a promise to yourself that you're not going to keep right? If anything, make a first week of the new year resolution and then keep it after that if you can. But I still think the song is a good 2010 anthem. I mean, seriously, how much do we miss by pouting? I can't speak for anyone else but I know that I waste tons and tons of time wallowing in the stupidest things. Therefore this will be my 2010 anthem... for the first week... and then I'll keep it after that if I can.

Its a new decade. I feel clean, I feel fresh. (I also feel jobless and poor but I believe that will soon change) I hope everyone else does too. (minus the jobless and poor) Sometimes you have to fake happy until you feel it for real. Then when you do - hold on to that fucker and dont let go.

I LOVE ANNE!

I am happy to report that I will be meeting with Anne on Monday morning at 9:30 to see if we can find a "good opportunity" for me!!!

I. LOVE. ANNE.

Mystery Books and Swine Flu Jobs

I read a book titled: Jennifer Jones is Sick of Being Single. I think thats what its called anyway. I dont have the energy to get up and see if thats what its really called. Anyway, it was really funny. Like, crazy funny in the beginning to the point where I was laughing out loud while reading it and people thought I may be crazy. I mean, I might be crazy but its not for the laughing out loud while reading a book reason. So, if you have $14 and want to laugh you should read the book. Hopefully I got the title right and you can find it. If there is an alternate book called Jennifer Jones is Sick of Being Single and it wasn't the one I was talking about then I hope you enjoy your new book that I havent read!



I'm still jobless. I've handed in about 15 applications and/or resumes. No one is hiring... or no one is hiring me. Its becoming a pain and I'm beginning to have anxiety. No one wants to hire during the holidays. Its sad, really. Today I called Anne at The Temp Connection. I sent Anne my resume and she said she'll look at it and "see what we can do." Thanks Anne. I have to call her back in about an hour so we can "talk some more." On my resume Anne will see that I've worked with Domestic Violence victims and Cancer Patients. Next perhaps Anne will have me working with Pig flu victims or something. She'll be like "oh, this girl is good with disasters - Swine flu!" I dont want to leave the AZ so please, Anne, find me a job.



Other than that nothing is really going on. I'm working on some classes, trying to excel at Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook, and failing miserably at Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook. I took a yoga class with a teacher that I really liked. He kind of kicked my ass. So I'm going to go back again tonight to get my ass handed to me again. Woohoo! I sometimes sit near our Christmas tree and thats a little bit comforting. I still want to take pictures of where I am and put them online but I still don't have the hook-up for my camera. I should get a new one but girls without jobs cant go around buying camera hook ups. (Please Anne, please, this is an emergency!)



Ok, just for the sake of having a picture for people to look at I looked up the wonder-book and I was most certainly wrong about the title. It is NOT Jennifer Jones - Its Jennifer Johnson. Close enough...

the project continues... also, my mom is awesome.

The Project Continues...

I've now put in an application or a resume (yes, a resume to make coffee... I dont know...) to 8 different cafes. To my unpleasant surprise none of them said "Wow Kim, you're awesome we want to hire you right away! Here is an apron for you to put on..." I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. My bank account is swiftly dwindling. I really need to have a job before I don't have enough to drive the car back across the country. I'm not there yet but it probably won't take long.

also, my mom is awesome.

That being said, I have probably the coolest mom ever who is way more supportive than she needs to be. So no one be nervous that I'll end up in a gutter somewhere hungry and cold.

Thats really about it. Nothing else is going on. I'm bored. I'm meditating. I'm job hunting. I'm not spending money. I just put a whole bunch of old music on my ipod...most of which makes me laugh.

Back in Tucson - Project: Find a Job

Greetings after a month long respite from writing. I would say that I didn't write while I was in New York and Buffalo because I was too busy but that would be an outright lie. I was lazy. However, in order to feel a sense of completion heres a recap:

New York

I went to some awesome Baghavad Gitta teachings while in New York which took up most of my nights. I helped with a bake sale that will get me to India in April ;-) I got to see the Fighter Pilot and the Monk business talks. Al of those things were great AND I got to see some of the coolest people in the whole wide world. Fun activities included...

making cookie pie.

eating smores.

and having a fire outside in very cold temperatures.

Buffalo

Most of Buffalo was spending time with my family which is probably the best thing to do. Especially with the coolest nephew on the planet. Unfotunately my Buffalo photos are not able to be shown at this time due to loosing my little hook up my camera to my computer thing. I thought in Buffalo when I didn't have it that it was in the car in Arizona. Now I am in Arizona and it is definitely not in the car. But if I did have my hook up my camera to my computer thingy you would see awesome pictures of Thanksgiving, shopping on Black Friday, a homemade Spiderman cake, and a 3 year old's birthday party. Ok, maybe those things aren't that interesting anyway... I thought they were anyway.

Now I'm back in Arizona and happy to be here. Of course, one of the things I was looking forward to getting back to was the sun and there was no sun to be found today. Thats ok though, at least there aren't freezing temperatures. I believe Buffalo is now covered under a blanket of snow so I'll be thankful for my warm-ish dreary day in Arizona. I did go to a yoga class today at a new place. It was really good if your definition of good is getting your butt kicked by trying to do things that you've never tried to do before and feeling like a pretzle.

Project Find a Job

Tomorrow starts Project Find a Job. This project is me... trying to find a job. I will stick to my previous plan of trying to work in a coffee shop. If in a few weeks (ew, thats a long time) I haven't found anything I suppose I'll have to try other places and/or wander around the streets of Tucson crying and begging people for a job, any job. My goal for tomorrow is to go to at least 4 places to job-seek.

Other than working on Project Find a Job I'll be meditating and doing yoga every day. I'll also be catching up on some meditation classes that I need to do to be able to take a class during term in February. And I'll be getting some classes with my teachers Rebecca and Grant. So, this will be a busy time - and I don't even have the job yet.

Stay tuned...