New Year.

Since it is the first day of a new year, the first day of a new decade - I can't help but be reminded of the Fiona Apple song: Better Version of Me (lyrics below)

The nickel dropped
When I was on
My way beyond
The Rubicon
What did I do

And of the games that I can handle
None are ones worth the candle
What can I do

I'm a frightened, fickle person
Fighting, cryin', kickin', cursin'
What should I do

Oooh, after all the folderol,
And hauling over coals stops
What will I do

Can't take a good day without a bad one
Don't feel just to smile until I've had one
Where did I learn

I make a fuss about a little thing
The rhyme is losing to the riddling
Where's the turn

I don't want a home, I'd ruin that
Home is where my habits have a habitat
Why give it a turn

Oh, after all the folderol
And hauling over coals stops
What did I learn

I am likely to miss the main event
If I stop to cry or complain again
So I will keep a deliberate pace
Let the damned breeze dry my face

Oh, mister, wait until you see
What I'm gonna be
I've got a plan, a demand and it just began
And if you're right, you'll agree

Here's coming a better version of me
Here it comes a better version of me
Here it comes a better version of me

Now, I dont necessarily agree with having to make a new years resolution. Jay and I had a talk about this yesterday. I mean, why make a promise to yourself that you're not going to keep right? If anything, make a first week of the new year resolution and then keep it after that if you can. But I still think the song is a good 2010 anthem. I mean, seriously, how much do we miss by pouting? I can't speak for anyone else but I know that I waste tons and tons of time wallowing in the stupidest things. Therefore this will be my 2010 anthem... for the first week... and then I'll keep it after that if I can.

Its a new decade. I feel clean, I feel fresh. (I also feel jobless and poor but I believe that will soon change) I hope everyone else does too. (minus the jobless and poor) Sometimes you have to fake happy until you feel it for real. Then when you do - hold on to that fucker and dont let go.